breaking all the rules.

there is no line anymore. if there was, i would leap over it. i ignore the line. there is no line to me. im breaking all the rules, and i love it!

work out.

sweat dropping. heavy breathing. shaking limbs. oh, the joys of a great work out (thought i was going somewhere else with that?) its this time spent killing myself with weights that i get some time to myself. time to think.

memories.

it's everything we've done that makes me smile. it's the laughs we've shared. it's the movies we've watched. it's the long nights we've had. it's the walks we've went on. it's all these memories that we have made that make me smile when i think of you. i dont want to leave you behind...but i know i'm going to have to. 21 days and counting

smiling.

its those little things you do that brighten my day. smiles attacked my face today. hopefully they will continue to attack it. you make me smile, im just dreading the day that my smile turns into tears. only a couple weeks left, then i have to say goodbye.

you.

you are on my mind. even the few memories we've made make me smile. you make me happy, even when you are hours away. i can hardly wait to make more memories with you, even with the limited time i have left here.

toughest thing.

a goodbye. a simple word. one of the hardest to speak aloud. tears are shed. sadness envelopes the heart. there are many ways to say it, but in the end...it all ends the same way. with someone leaving...

you.

you...made...my night. you made me smile. you made me laugh. you made me happy :)

goodbye.

goodbye my loving twin, whom i dont know how i will get along without you. goodbye my overbearing mother, i will miss your nosiness. goodbye my kind father, i will miss how you always make me feel better. goodbye my "best friend." goodbye to those who have made a huge impact in my life, you will stay with me forever.

jack johnson.

always someone who makes the day better. just throw my phone on the jj playlist and life is fantastic. it makes those horrible days better and those wonderful days even happier. one day i hope to meet him.

rock bottom.

they say when you hit rock bottom you have no way to go but up. but whenever i think i hit the bottom of the bucket, there is always some new way that i fall again. ive been falling a lot lately. too much. i hate those sort of days. but there is something peaceful about a depressed sort of day.

hoping.

hoping, hoping, hoping, that this wish might come true. but hoping doesnt do anything. actions do. but actions can lead to pain. and pain can lead to tears. and tears i cant deal with anymore. so how to get this hope into reality? a new challenge. one im afraid to meet.

flying.

cant wait till the day i fly so high up in the sky, that i leave it all behind. just me and the sky. a battle yet to be fought...

i dont know why.

i dont know why some days im pulled into a depression so deep that i cant even see the top of the hole. i dont know why i hate to see you walking away, even though you didnt even know that i was there. i dont know why i still feel this, even after all the pain you seem to put me through.

some days.

some days i just was to turn away from the world. some days i feel like being the bright sunshine. some days i feel like lighting the whole world on fire. some days i feel like never going anywhere. but every day...i want to talk to you. you make it all better...but i think you want to turn away from me...