how?

how can i get through each day without you? how can i get up and get out of bed without you there? how can i walk to work and pretend like everything is okay, when you're not there? how can i survive without you? i don't know, but i'm making it work for now.

she stares at the uniform she puts on everyday...standing, staring, dreaming. she is proud to put on the Air Force green each day and live to excellence. she is proud of who she is and what she can do. when she stares at that uniform she sees a grown woman with a future

breaking all the rules.

there is no line anymore. if there was, i would leap over it. i ignore the line. there is no line to me. im breaking all the rules, and i love it!

work out.

sweat dropping. heavy breathing. shaking limbs. oh, the joys of a great work out (thought i was going somewhere else with that?) its this time spent killing myself with weights that i get some time to myself. time to think.

memories.

it's everything we've done that makes me smile. it's the laughs we've shared. it's the movies we've watched. it's the long nights we've had. it's the walks we've went on. it's all these memories that we have made that make me smile when i think of you. i dont want to leave you behind...but i know i'm going to have to. 21 days and counting

smiling.

its those little things you do that brighten my day. smiles attacked my face today. hopefully they will continue to attack it. you make me smile, im just dreading the day that my smile turns into tears. only a couple weeks left, then i have to say goodbye.

you.

you are on my mind. even the few memories we've made make me smile. you make me happy, even when you are hours away. i can hardly wait to make more memories with you, even with the limited time i have left here.

toughest thing.

a goodbye. a simple word. one of the hardest to speak aloud. tears are shed. sadness envelopes the heart. there are many ways to say it, but in the end...it all ends the same way. with someone leaving...

you.

you...made...my night. you made me smile. you made me laugh. you made me happy :)

goodbye.

goodbye my loving twin, whom i dont know how i will get along without you. goodbye my overbearing mother, i will miss your nosiness. goodbye my kind father, i will miss how you always make me feel better. goodbye my "best friend." goodbye to those who have made a huge impact in my life, you will stay with me forever.